It’s been a while since I have had the time to write; I’m not happy about this because my time is in my hands yet clearly I have not prioritised it in a way which fulfills me. Like most people I have let life take over and as a result the past few months have been a blurr.
We tend to make life difficult and complex for ourselves, or maybe that’s just me. But last week when uni finished, after 3 years of part time study and full time work, I felt a sense of relief which I told myself I will hold on to. I hadn’t been that calm and relaxed in a while.
But that sense of relief was short lived, because now I’m worried about the pressures at work. Pressures that I put on myself because of the sense of responsibility I have towards getting my job done. It’s interesting how tiring it can all get and eventhough I say to myself that tomorrow will be different, I find it difficult to find the energy to change my thought processes and ultimately my behaviours.
Life is what we make it, it will be sweet and energetic if we want it to be, or tiring and difficult if we do nothing about our fears, worries and barriers which prevent us from being present. Sometimes I think it is the busy city life that makes us this way. We’re always so busy, but what are we busy doing? I’m not saving lives, I’m not building anything nor am I creating anything, I’m not involved in any labour and I sure don’t make any significant difference. Yet somehow I am always busy and now that uni is over, it’s sad to think that my state of busy-ness won’t change; rather now I will be busy doing nothing in particular.
There are a lot of things I want to do and places I want to go; but the exhaustion I’m feeling makes me question if I will actually do anything about it. But that’s like most people I know; we always put things off for tomorrow thinking that tomorrow will somehow be different to today. But lets face it, tomorrow will be no different if we don’t make it so; therefore, the big question is, how will you make your tomorrow different to your today?
It’s a challenging thought, at least it is to me; because I make everything complex. Simplicity is far too boring or so I keep saying to myself, as an excuse, so that I won’t feel bad about not doing anything about my current state.
This is how the days of our lives pass us by and this is how we miss the essence of life itself. Lets not allow the busy world around us stop us from truly living and truly feeling; we deserve the same love and care we advise to others. Even if it is one small step that will make your tomorrow different, don’t be afraid to take it.
A house is not built over night and all at once; rather brick by brick you lay the foundation of what will become your home. So go on, lay your first brick and little by little set the foundation for your amazing and fruitful life.
In the end, you will see that the small everyday steps are what led you in the right direction; and that each day of your life had a purpose, they were guiding you home.
Love always
Miss Dreamer
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