I miss you..

I don’t like separation, by that I don’t mean break ups, I mean any separation from a loved one which creates distance between us. Yet despite my dislike, my life journey has been about learning to let go of those I love again and again. I’ve come to realise that life retests you on the lessons you refuse to learn from. Nice one life, I see what you’re doing! You would think that after all this practice I would have become immune to the whole process. But instead, my heart and soul feel the loss or separation as deeply as they always have.

But there is a subtle difference between my experiences with goodbyes today in comparison to yesterday. The difference is now I don’t question the pain, I don’t avoid the loss, I don’t get angry for the change; instead, I focus on the blessings that those individuals have given me. I get joy and peace through shifting my focus from all the fear attached to losing them to the smiles we’ve shared, the memories we will create and the wonderful additions these changes have had in our lives.

I mean how do you ever get over the distance between your grandparents, parents and siblings? How do you ever make up for the space between you and your best friends who are scattered around the world? How do you adapt to your dearest friends moving away? Of course there is no right or wrong answer, life is always changing and people come and go; but now I realise that you need to let go of the past to let the future form. 

These experiences have taught me that each moment is precious and nothing is forever, making it all the more important to love deeply, be fully present and to be grateful for every interaction with a loved one, every hug, every kiss, every conversation, everything.

I think I will forever miss those that are dear to me; I will always feel the space created in the absence of those who I have come to cherish. But equally I will love them from afar and will pray for a tomorrow where we can share another laugh, another meal and another hug. 

This is a poem I dedicate to all those I miss and to those who are missing someone:

I miss you, you who taught me so much about myself, 

I miss you, you who took my hand when I was down and made me smile

I miss you, you who challenged me on my world views and my thoughts

I miss you, you who brought joy to my life just by sitting there and blessing me with your presence

I miss you, you my highschool friend who I grew up with and now live so far away from

I miss you, you who taught me love, kindness and peace

I miss you, you who made me feel like home, you who listened 

I miss you, you who I hugged, you who I loved

I miss you, you who moved away to discover your own journey

I miss you, you who has passed on into the heavens above

I miss you, you who made my soul dance, my heart flutter and my mind spark with connection

I miss you, you who crossed paths with me and blessed my life with your story and your magic

I miss you, you who I may never see again, you who I skype and you who I long to hear from

I miss you, always, everyday, everywhere, dreaming of moments we had and wishing to create more memories together

I miss you and I wonder if you miss me too.

Love Always,

Miss Dreamer