Rejection after rejection. Sometimes the fight seems impossible and too hard. Sometimes it’s exhausting because you can’t really see the light at the end of the tunnel. That’s when the narratives come in, telling you stories that are simply not true.
“Maybe I’m not good enough”
“Maybe I’m worth less than I think”
“Maybe I can’t”
“Maybe I won’t”
“Maybe I shouldn’t”
“Maybe others are right and I’ve been wrong this whole time”
And the list can go on or vary, but the narratives never serve you when you feel defeated. I get it, sometimes it just feels easier to quit, to put your hands up and surrender. Sometimes the narratives that been on repeat in our heads and throughout our lives seem too familiar to be lies. But we need to be careful because we are setting ourselves to fail if we don’t shed ourselves from these toxic thoughts. The energy it takes to put ourselves down is exhausting and it does no good what so ever.
Do you enjoy feeling down? Do you enjoy not feeling good enough? The answer to these is of course not! Are you waiting for someone to come and fix it all and tell you that you are worthy? Well then here is the hard truth, it’s not somebody else’s responsibility to come and heal you nor to love you better. It is our own responsibility to love ourselves by realising that we are ultimately the ones that have given these narratives permission to stay in our minds. Putting the responsibility on someone else will only prolong these feelings. It also means we are vulnerable to being swayed in all sorts of direction by those that are around us and not everyone can be trusted with this power or this space.
So, we need to want to feel different more than what we are currently feeling. We need to want to be our own lovers, heroes and champions more than we expect others to come and rescue us. Of course they can help, but at the end of the day we are the ones that spend the most amount of time with ourselves. We are the ones that determine who gets to enter our sacred space and who gets to add value to our lives. If there are people that don’t lift us up or nourish us then they’re the ones we need to let go of with love and kindness. Life is more complex than the words I put down here on a page, I know. This isn’t intended at putting myself or anyone else down for not lifting themselves up. It is a long ass journey and it’s fu^*ing exhausting. But, nothing good comes without effort and nothing good is handed to us without determination.
I’m here to remind myself and anyone who reads this that you are enough, you have always been enough. You are incredibly talented and capable and if you don’t feel that way it’s either because you’ve not realised your true potential and talents or because you’re a perfectionist who is never happy with what they do. Either way, change the narrative in your head and start putting yourself out there so you can see what you are capable of. Even if it is a baby step, that is fine, because baby step are better than no steps at all.
I’m here to tell you that the world doesn’t define you, your loved ones don’t define you and nothing anyone can say will determine your worth. You are abundance, you are the source of love and compassion and you are your own hero. If you have been through trauma like I have this path can be more difficult but it’s not impossible. It takes more effort, it takes support either from your trusted loved ones and most definitely professional help. It takes a lot of reflection, journaling, meditation and practice. But the trauma can be healed and you will get through it – eventually.
You got this, you really do. On days when you feel like you don’t, practice sitting in silence and taking a deep breath and reminding yourself of the love that has always been and will continue to remain inside of you.
You are enough.
You have always been enough.
You will always be enough.
Time to go love yourself through the pain, you got this!
Love Always,
Miss Dreamer
Souloom™ 