Miss you…

This pandemic has torn so many couples, families and friends apart, I know we all have so much struggle and grief and I know there are those of us who have really difficult and heart breaking circumstance. Even if you’re single and don’t have a partner, you would still feel the heaviness that comes from the distance from those that matter to you. We all have a heaviness we have to carry and it hurts, for some more than others and I wish there was something I could do to help lift it off your tender hearts.

I woke up feeling the heaviness of being away from my partner today, some days I feel like I am going to go mad and that I can’t take it anymore – particularly because I literally don’t know when I will get to hug him again and especially because the goodbye was so rushed and I didn’t get to hold him long enough, one last time until the next time.

I hope that we all get through this with as much self-compassion as possible, it’s ok if you miss someone, we all miss someone(s). What a blessing to miss, though the feeling is hard, it’s the reminder of love in all shapes and sizes.

Here is a poem I wrote to help lift the heaviness off my heart, I hope it helps you for a moment too.

 

I dreamt of you last night,

Of holding you in my arms tight,

I woke up feeling sad,

Knowing you were on the other side of the world made me mad!

I kept thinking when will this all end,

Why can’t I be there in the same bed?

 

I know that there is reason for all that is,

But my heart misses having my hand in his,

I know that time will have to unfold,

And in the meantime I need to be bold,

In discovering the space between us,

Though in the outer world it may be wide,

In our hearts it’s forever intertwined,

 

When will time send me back to you?

Will it be today, tomorrow or one year in the afternoon?

I don’t know what lies ahead and I don’t want to think,

If the answer is unpleasant, I will just sink,

 

There is so much heaviness in my heart,

It’s the weight of being apart from the one I love,

I take a deep breath and send you a prayer,

I hope it reaches your ear,

As it whispers hello, are you there?

I’ve got some love and light to share.

 

I will pass these days with as much strength as I can,

I know that the universe has its own intended plan,

Though I will need to trust that which I don’t understand,

I hope and pray that it leads me back home to my man,

 

I know that wishing time away is not wise,

But I really hope I get to look into his eyes,

So, here I sit, waiting for the day,

That I get to turn around and say,

My darling, I walked my way back home,

I didn’t give up, I gripped tight to hope,

Here I am, once again,

And here, I will forever remain.

 

Love

M