We can’t control the future, we can’t always guarantee that what we put in, we will be able to get out. There are stronger forces at play here, but they’re not there to punish you or to hurt you. Life is not your opponent trying to win the game by knocking you out. Life is your teacher, trying to push you to your true potential. The learning process is a pain in the butt, it’s unpleasant, scary and exhausting but it’s also worth it in the end.
I have found myself in a cross road of fate and my desires clashing. I realise that I have to accept the reality that going home to my partner is going to take longer than I anticipated. That there will be more challenges and obstacles we must overcome, before our paths cross-again.
This doesn’t have to be a doom and gloom situation, it could also be seen as a stepping stone, for our future and for us. When you love someone, it can be very upsetting being away from them. We view proximity as a defining factor in the sustainability of the relationship, rightfully so. But distance doesn’t equate to disaster, if you are able to find what you can learn from it you can make it a beautiful chapter in your story together.
This is the beauty of life, no matter what circumstance we are in there is always the opportunity to grow. Even when you feel like you cannot possibly get anything good out of your circumstance, there is always a nugget of beauty that is awaiting your discovery. Sometimes it can be harder than others to spot these opportunities, but they’re always there.
I find myself in a situation that is not ideal, I have to be away from him for an uncertain period of time, I may not be able to make my way back home to the UK for a substantial period of time and I have to stay in an environment that has caused me so much pain and trauma. But, there is also so much beauty, love and joy I just need to truly look to see it.
I have two choices, let despair wash all over me and drown me under the weight of uncertainty, or, soar up high and try and fly. I have tried the drowning before, it doesn’t make anything better. So, I’m going to try flying this time and see where it gets me. It can’t possibly be any worse than what I’ve already been through.
Choose the good in your life, there is always the option to choose, even when it doesn’t appear like you have much say in anything.
Love Always,
M
Souloom™ 