Worries start with one thought, the more you identify with that thought and give it space, the more it will grow until you are consumed by it. Battling your worries is not an easy thing to do, it takes a lot of practice and a lot of defeat. But this is exactly why cultivating self-compassion is so crucial on this journey. As much as I wish I could wake up one day without any worry, without my mind racing and my thoughts trying to take me down the rabbit hole, the reality is that human isn’t an easy thing and that this expectation of ‘arrival’ at a peaceful place is not as practical as we would like it to be.
Of course, everyone’s lived experience is different – our life journey’s take us down our unique paths; this just happens to be mine. I do view my worries as my imagination not being flourished and or focused onto something specific. I have always had a wild and big imagination – but because the experiences I’ve had throughout my life have been full of trauma, change and pain, I seem to have utilised my imagination to build this world further in my head. But, I want to steer myself away from these negative thoughts as much as I can. I want to practice new skills and focus my imagination on dreaming of the beautiful things that can be.
This is a goal that I need to work towards and though the path will be slow and hard, it will no doubt be worth it. Cultivating beauty in our lives comes from within, all things that are external to us will come and go. It’s time that I start paying attention to where I invest my imagination. To steering it towards things that bring me joy. I have been working on changing my beliefs towards my own self worth when it comes to beauty, joy, peace and bliss. I need to continue with extending the self-compassion over and over again.
I’ve observed the thought that is planting the seed of worry in me this morning and I’ve addressed with “I’ know you’re scared, I know it feels like you’re going to face sadness, but right now, here, in this moment everything is ok”; I’ve written about it, prayed, will meditate and also do some yoga to help my body release it – before I start a day that is going to show me all sorts of other emotions and thoughts no doubt.
Be kind to yourself in every moment, work on kindness and all else will fall in place.
Love Always,
M
Souloom™ 