I keep coming back to the question of “Who am I?” and each time I do, the response is different; it is unclear, unfinished and or foreign. But this morning, I asked that question again in the middle of prayer and the answer was different to all other times. This time the answer was clear, it was obvious and it was profound. This time, the answer was – I am the one who is asking the question. I realised that the answer to this is not within the response I give, but rather in the question itself. Who is asking the question – I am.
It suddenly made me understand Rumi’s quote of ‘Look for the answer inside your question’. I think I now really understand what he means, so often we get so distracted with trying to seek the answer outside of us, that we completely forget to look within. It kind of reminds me of when you’re looking for your phone or keys around the house, and you search everywhere, except the obvious place which in my case is my back pocket!
I know that spiritually I am feeling more comfortable and clear about who I am, but psychologically there is a lot that still needs to unfold and be unlearned. This is another insight I had this year, that we have many aspects to us and these aspects can sometimes clash or compete with each other. But we don’t have to blur the lines between them if we don’t want to. I can proceed with my spiritual journey and reach peace and bliss, but that doesn’t mean that my psychological journey is keeping up with the pace and or that it can get to the same destination at the same time and in the same way.
That is ok. Today, I will just sit with the new found insight that spiritually, I now know who I am, I have felt the response and found a clear answer.
Who I describe myself to be psychologically, is a journey I still need to wander down and see where it takes me.
Love Always,
M
Souloom™ 