One of the frustrating things that I’ve come to slowly accept over the years, is that life teaches you lessons over and over again, until you can truly understand the intent behind them. This is really frustrating because every time you feel like you’ve discovered the answer and are close to opening a new chapter, you find yourself involved in the same storyline just with different characters. It can be exhausting and it can feel like progress is not being made, but the reality is progress is being made incrementally and so you won’t realise how far you’ve gotten until your time in this world is up.
I’ve written this poem to help capture the cyclical experience of learning and going through growth in life, particularly from a philosophical perspective, where you are asking the big questions. I hope you enjoy it.
Cyclical Teachings:
I wish I knew all the answers, I wish I did,
For then I would be able to let go of him.
But instead, I sit here in wonder and curiosity,
Questioning all the answers that are already in front of me.
I don’t know how it got this far and I don’t know how far it will go,
But this day to day battle is now leaving scars at home,
I don’t have soldiers, I don’t have swords,
I don’t have an armour that’s made of gold.
Every time I push hard, I’m faced with harder force,
Yet I stay hopeful at the thought of change,
At the thought of the day I may say,
That all this challenge and all this pain,
Has given me eternal gain,
For now I understand what the purpose is,
It is not to seek answers in the abyss,
It is to wonder, then wonder some more,
Yet feel the joy of every moment in the unknown,
It is to be here and not there, where there are so many lies,
Whatever is happening, is the truth in my eyes,
So I don’t ponder about the questions that I can’t resolve,
Instead I devote my heart to love and all that belongs,
I pray a few times, I say a few words,
I let go of the anguish that comes with the hurt,
I cleanse the heart, the body and the mind,
I let myself sit here, just for a little while,
Then just as I’m about to reach the end,
Where I can taste the wine and smell the fresh air,
It all goes back to square one, where I was wishing I knew all the answers to the questions in my heart!
Love Always,
M
Souloom™ 