The past couple of weeks have been an interesting experience. Due to a medical procedure I had done, I couldn’t commit to my routine that I had worked hard to put into place. It didn’t take long for a lot of old thinking habits to come back, what’s more, I found that I was self-sabotaging myself even more to make things more difficult to come back from. Disrupting my sleep, not paying attention to my diet, drinking the coffee’s and the wine. But it’s ok, over the past 2 weeks I had to let go of everything and just allow myself to feel sorry for myself. But then, you have to get back up and dust yourself off and get onto the path that brings you the most joy and well being.
Coming out of that period, I can now recognise how much I actually value the routine that I have put into place and that it’s not so much a routine that I’m enforcing, but a lifestyle change that I have come to appreciate and enjoy. I think a lot of it has to do with the attention I was giving to taking care of my own needs instead of that of others. When you start taking care of yourself, you start feeling better about yourself.
The past couple of weeks have given me some good perspectives into what I want to do with my time, what I don’t want to do and how I would like to live and how I wouldn’t. Of course there is still so much to learn and uncover, but it was a good insight. I need to get myself back into a focused head space where I prioritise my needs and well being over what has to be done for others; be it in the context of my personal life or professional one.
As I go back to my routines and healthier choices, I need to be kinder with myself that after a 2 week pause, it will be hard for me at first to get it ‘right’. But the focus is not perfection, the focus is progress and dedication. That is something that I really need to remind myself about daily and make sure that I come back to it as my guiding principle.
This is what self-compassion is about, learning to be kind to yourself when you steer off your life journey. Be kind to yourself when you disappoint yourself and just keep on going.
Love Always,
M
Souloom™ 