The current state of the world is still a bit surreal for me. There is so much uncertainty and yet one thing is clear, nature continues on as though nothing has changed. If you think about it, even the virus is unaware of the impact it has had on civilisation. But we have all had to experience so much grief, change, loss, pain, vulnerability, fear, uncertainty, discomfort etc. Every single one of us has been impacted in one shape or another by this pandemic and will continue to be so until the next chapter presents itself to us.
It does make you wonder about how we are all interpreting this experience. What we are learning, unlearning, feeling, manifesting, healing, grieving etc. There are endless stories to be told and not enough time to hear them all. I’ve had to shut myself off to most of the pain that is in the world, because I’ve had far too much occurring in my personal life that required most of my energy.
I struggled with the challenges of mental health and I think we would be lying to ourselves if most of us didn’t have to tackle some level of anxiety or depression; then again a lot of us are unaware of our moods, emotions and way of being in the world. The labels don’t matter, what matters is where they lead us. I’m really exhausted from having to be strong but I can’t afford to rest right now. There is also equally a part of me that wants to make the most of the moments that I do have and try to live it to the best of my abilities by pursuing the things that bring me joy.
To do that, I’m practicing the art of being here in what is taking place today. So that I can notice the enjoyment that comes in the hot cup of coffee, the kindness of a nurse that is taking care of me and the opportunity to have some of my ducks in order even if most of them are waddling around somewhere. To have friends that are full of magic and love, family that is persevering through what has been a hellish battle of a lifetime and a partner who is managing his own journey the best that he can. In order to see the beauty behind all of this, I have to be ‘here’ more often and not ‘there’; wherever there may be.
Practice, practice, practice. I write to you right now with a sense of calm that has washed over me for the first time today. Perhaps the calm is the outcome of practicing presence or perhaps it is the cause of becoming present; who knows. I’m going to stop dissecting it all and just be here for now.
Love yourselves utterly, even the bits that are hard to love. Practice, practice, practice so that you too can be right here, in your moment, in your life.
Love Always,
M
Souloom™ 