Forever, stay…

I really enjoy writing poems, there is something really beautiful about the flow that takes over me. I don’t think about my poems, there is no idea, no destination, no aim. It’s just an expression and a creativity that manifests itself often without any warning.

For some, poetry must abide by a set of rules in the language that it is expressed in. But for me, poetry is an untamed expression of life experiences, dreams, ideas and perspectives that will only present themselves when you let go of expectation and perfection. Like most art, it’s beautiful to those who understand it and meaningless to those who can’t relate.

This particular poem is an expression of all the inner turmoil I went through, observing the conflict between my fears and my hopes about my relationship. It’s hard enough being in a long-distance relationship during a pandemic, with no clarity or idea as to when you may reunite with your loved one. But in our circumstance, there are additional layers of complexity that we need to navigate, so it’s no surprise that I’ve felt anxious and eager to ‘abort mission’ because it was too hard. But I quickly realise that my expectations of a relationship are not yet formed based on my own values and are not manifesting from a place of love. Instead, I’m still growing out of the old beliefs about love and relationships, so I need to untangle the root of my thoughts in order to determine who is in the drivers seat; my past self or my future self.

In moments like this, you have to ask yourself what is guiding you – fear or love? If the answer is fear, then you can only temporarily run from it, but it will find you again and it will not set you free until you realise that the fear itself is the problem, not the situation or the relationship.

This poem is dedicated to anyone who is afraid of an unknown future with their partner. Find the beauty in the present moment, for this time that you are sharing together is precious.

Forever, stay:

I hold your hopes in my heart,

I try not to let them out in the dark,

I find all the light that I can grab,

Weave a bright cloak to wear on your back,

I put your promises into jars,

Hoping they won’t fly away towards the stars,

I shackle my fears with heavy chains,

I won’t let hope drown in my veins,

I hold your ideas, I hold your dreams,

I won’t break them,

They’re so precious to me,

As I walk by your side, I can’t help but stare,

At the blue sky in the sunlit glare,

I hope this moment never ends,

I take it in with every breath,

Feeling grateful that we met,

Sometimes it’s hard, I will not lie,

But my smile is no disguise,

I found truth in all your flaws,

Kissed your wounds and your scars,

I don’t know what fate has planned,

But for now I am so glad,

That you are the one that I get to love,

You are the one that holds my heart,

If forever ends here, today,

Then in this moment, I will forever stay.

Love Always,

M