Change doesn’t happen overnight. For this reason, if you have been on the change journey for some time, you can forget where you are going. This forgetting is such a natural part of human existence. We forget things easily, because we are constantly distracted by our thoughts, sensations and the environment in which we are in. This is how our ego’s are able to stay in ‘control’ and prevent us from tapping into our true nature. But remembering is the change journey that we are on and if we wish to remember then we have to be ok with continuously forgetting.
Today, I woke up feeling rather pre-occupied with thoughts, feelings and sensations that are subtle yet constant. I only became aware of them as I tried to take a few seconds to pause before I got out of bed. Then I took a few more minutes to listen to some binaural beats as I brushed my teeth as I did so, I noticed that there they were, a flood of emotions and thoughts that had started the day already and jumped into so many different experiences, before I had even finished brushing my teeth! I then took out the yoga mat which I’ve been de-prioritising for majority of this year and got myself to practice. During practice, the thoughts and emotions became louder and even more distracting. I caught myself a few times flowing with them, like waves that was carrying me away. The moment I would become aware of them, I would remind myself to take deep breaths and become present with what I’m doing on the yoga mat. It would probably last for 20 seconds before I got distracted again.
This journey of forgetting and remembering can be exhausting, but only if you are expecting to remember constantly. I suppose, once you let go of the need to always remember and understand that you are experiencing the forgetting for a reason, you become less consumed with the process and become more attuned with the practice. This continuous practice is what brings about the change in your narratives, thoughts and overall experiences. But like I said, change doesn’t happen overnight. Some changes don’t even happen over a lifetime. But does that mean they’re not worth pursuing? I personally don’t think so. So I keep on trying to remember, as much as I can.
As I write away this morning, one thing is clear to me and that is moments can be lost in thought so easily. Remembering to come back to the here and now, is the only way you can let go and just BE. It’s the only way you can tap into peace and stop robbing yourself of the gift of presence. So, let us remember together.
Love Always,
M
Souloom™ 