I have noticed that I have a scarcity mindset towards most things in life. It’s probably rooted in the fact that there is an unconscious wiring that makes me believe that I’m not enough. I also have been brought up in an environment where scarcity of resources was a real thing, therefore my way of experiencing life as an adult has been shaped by the world view that there isn’t enough for everyone.
Being brought up in a culture where there is an unhealthy and silent relationship with jealousy and envy, as well as an unhealthy and superstitious relationship with trust and self-worth, you grow up developing world views that are toxic and fear based. For example, it’s been engrained in me that you do not share your joys, wins and dreams with just anyone because not everyone wishes you well. But I don’t want to live my life with the pre-programmed mindset and beliefs that don’t serve me. I want to have an abundance frame of mind where I don’t feel threatened by others doing well and achieving success. I also don’t want to feel as though I can’t share my wins and achievements with others because then I could lose them.
I’m sure I’m not alone in my feelings but I’m going to be vulnerable in sharing them because the reality is that all of us have narratives that can make us feel ashamed. But there is another way, you can choose to let yourself be free from the shame and instead own the thoughts. When you choose how you feel about something, you can gain control back of the narratives playing on repeat in your head and therefore influence your experiences too.
I would like to go about my life with the view that there is abundance of joy, bliss, hope, optimism, opportunity, materials, resources, money and most important love, to go around for everyone. There is a big gap between my current mindset and the one that I am aiming to develop but I’m determined that little by little I will become more open to the idea of abundance and I will be able to shift my behaviours. Ultimately letting go of that which doesn’t serve me anymore, will lead to me growing into the next evolution of myself.
Love Always,
M
Souloom™ 