I was reminded yesterday about what lights me up. I was participating in a training course through work and suddenly I had a rush of excitement, life and energy buzz through me because the subject matter and the delivery was so aligned to my true self. I was so overwhelmed by this energy that it felt like I had drank 5 cups of coffee and I didn’t know how to release and or manage that level of energy and excitement after so many months of operating at a mellow level.
These experiences are such important reminders on our journey about what brings us to life, what we truly want to do and how we really want to live. Whenever you’re energised and excited about something you need to pay attention to it because it’s showing you something important about what you value and what you need.
For me, this happens to be writing, sharing, coaching, facilitating, learning and growing. I am so energised when I am able to dabble in the space of Soul Journey, not just for myself but for others too. To contribute to anyone’s Soul Journey is such a privilege and it’s something we are all doing all the time through our interactions. I tend to forget that when the ego is operating and that is an area that I need to become more masterful at, as it’s important to remember that we are constantly in a situation where if we want we can be serving others, the environment and a greater purpose.
But in order to do that, you need to be aware of your own ego traps. Such as the claims and narratives that take you away from a whole body experience and into a mind one. Or the situations where you don’t feel like you have a say in the experience because you’ve been overridden by your reactions. These moments are teaching you the vital areas that you need to practice letting go even more. This is a life long practice, so we need to redefine how we feel a sense of progress and accomplishment on this journey. A sense of progress that is not driven by ego rather is observed through wisdom. A sense of accomplishment that is not about pride but instead about honouring the growth.
I recognised in myself yesterday how I’ve denied myself from living a more values aligned and purposeful life because of the fears that I harbour and the self-doubt that is plaguing me deep within. I am too concerned about financial security and unable to lift myself out of this concern in a way that will be enabling. But the reality is there is always a solution to a problem and there are always creative ways of going about things.
So then it’s not about my external circumstance, rather my internal narrative that is driving the daily decisions to stay and do the things that drain me of my energy instead of pursuing the things that will fill my cup. It’s about the beliefs that I hold deep within that are unconsciously guiding my every thought and every move. If you’re going to be stressed, might as well be stressed in the process of pursuing the things you enjoy, right? Thought I’m sure the wise would say that when you are pursuing that which you enjoy, you won’t be feeling stressed. I’m not sure if that can be possible with the biology that we have, though I’m sure the levels and or the experience of stress would be different.
Knowing how you think, feel and operate in the world is going to be key to how you manage these forks in the road. I don’t want to choose a fearful path nor do I want to choose one that will be credited and validated by others. I want to choose a path that will expand my heart and enable me to live this life the way it was always intended, from a place of purpose and presence.
There is a lot that still needs to be discovered and there is a lot that needs to be healed; all good things happen exactly when they’re meant to. With that thought, I let go of the need to control the future and instead pay attention to the insights I can take away right now, in service of my future path.
What energises you? What makes you feel alive?
Love Always,
M
Souloom™ 