Trusting to let go…


“What’s meant for you will not pass you by.”

This is an Irish proverb that I learned when I was in the UK and it has really stuck with me. There is a sense of comfort and absolute truth in this statement. One that I try so hard to hold at the forefront of my mind but keep falling into the patterns and narratives that distract me from surrendering to this way of living.

Every time I remember this proverb I sit with it and allow it to sink in just a little bit deeper, so that one day it becomes my way of living and not a reminder of the deliberate effort required to change my narratives. This journey of growth has too many ups and downs, contradictions, paradoxes, two steps forward and three steps back experiences. There is a lot of moments where you feel frustrated, annoyed, exhausted and over it all. Moments where you arrive at unhelpful questions such as what’s the point? These questions are insights into narratives that the ego preaches because you’re making an impact that is altering your subconscious thinking patterns – hence the ego feeling threatened.

Recognising that these narratives are all a form of self-sabotage has been difficult for me. This is because I rationalise everything and so I have boundless logical reasons for and against everything that I do and feel. When you let your mind rationalise everything, you can become ignorant to what your heart and body are sharing with you through their wisdom. Recently I have found myself blinded to so many truths that I’ve come to accept, compartmentalising them instead of applying them. I sense that this is the result of becoming spiritually arrogant and achieving a level of awareness where I feel that I don’t need to do the work in order to achieve the change. Overly confident that once a veil comes off, there is a sense of pride in the ‘knowing’ and therefore, the desire to alter becomes less and less interesting. But of course, this is the ego masking itself and preventing me from experiencing those truths in everything that I feel, think and do.

The intent of the Soul Journey is to continuously challenge your way of being, enabling you to grow and evolve into deeper versions of yourself. It requires daily practice and deliberate effort and a large degree of self-compassion and self-forgiveness. It requires trusting the process and the deep knowing that the uncertainty and discomfort is actually an invitation to let go and let be.

I recognise that I can’t control the outcomes and intent of the universe. I can however give myself permission to let go and keep my heart and whole self open to the possibilities that could be. This is where this Irish proverb acts as an anchor in grounding me. Remembering that what’s meant for me will not pass me by helps me to trust and let go, letting the universe do what it does best.

Love Always,

M


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