I mostly live in my chaotic mind, where there are hundreds of tabs open and sometimes they have the flavour of anxiety and depression and sometimes they are clear and light. The past two years have been hard on so many levels, a lot of which was unrelated to the pandemic. The pandemic was the fuel on a fire that was ravaging in our lives. One of the biggest lessons I’ve learned from these past two years is that you can’t stop what’s meant to happen, but you can choose to put one foot in front of another. Even when you’re on the ground, you can choose to crawl, and sometimes that minimal crawling is enough.
When you are struck by adversity you need to learn to feel comfortable with the discomfort and the mess. There will be so many circumstances where you want to sink into the ground or you feel like you’ve hit rock bottom. But, after every fall there can be a rise, it’s up to us to want to take that direction. Most days it may feel like you’re not making any progress, some days even feel harder than the previous day. But eventually you will reach the finish line and look back and realise that every moment that you tried has led you to this point.
I feel like I’ve finished the first lap on a very long run, though there are more milestones to reach, I can see that my efforts, struggles and endurance hasn’t gone to waste. Although I’m still struggling with depression, thankfully it’s not as crippling as it was. Moments like these are important to cherish, so I’m learning to enjoy them and relax into them. This in itself requires a lot of learning for me, because it’s not how I usually respond. But I’ve learned that the more you relax and let go of the fear that this state can be temporary, the more you can extend those moments and afford yourself more and more peace.
On this Sunday I’m going to try my best to relax into the moment. There is no space for fear, so when it comes knocking I will know that is the precise moment that I need to relax the most.
Let’s practice.
Love Always,
M
Souloom™ 