I’ve gone offline for a couple of weeks and I haven’t had a chance to post or in fact follow the routine that I had established broadly across my life. Mainly because I am pleased to say that after almost 2 years of separation due to covid, my partner and I have finally had the chance to reunite for a temporary period of time (for now).
So, I’ve had to let go of a lot of things including the routine I put in place for myself in order to manage my selfcare and balance across my life. This was so that I can create the space needed to readjust to living with someone and to reconnect with him in person. It’s also been challenging because I was doing a coaching course, coaching my clients and also going through an incredibly busy period at my new work where I am still in the learning curve and understanding the organisation.
So, I had to be kind to myself by acknowledging that not being able to attend to all aspects of my life in the same way was going to be the consequence of this change. But, what I am conscious of now is that I need to form a new routine that will continue to nourish my needs and ensure that I’m able to regain some form of balance that will enable me to consciously divide my life across the various aspects that matter to me.
I’m not interested in being perfect and or doing everything all at once, I’ve done that before and it’s empty and exhausting. What I need to do is to prioritise my needs realistically and with consideration to the needs of my partner as well. The first thing that I know I need to get a better hang of is my sleep routine, this was disrupted prior to him coming to Australia because of the hours I was doing at work. So, I need to get myself into a space where I protect my sleep time and quality because I can definitely notice the mental decline when I’m sleep deprived and the poor health choices I make e.g. eating more sugar, falling back onto coffee to operate and also being too tired to exercise.
I am also conscious that I need the space to reflect and I’ve not had a chance to journal or blog. Therefore, I know there will be a lot of emotions, thoughts and experiences that I’ve not fully reconciled in myself. But I am going t be kind to myself and also recognise that I have in some shape or form maintained my yoga practice, I was trying my best to complete my course and I have been there for my coaching clients. So, I have been able to continue in some areas and that’s important to recognise otherwise, it’s overwhelming and also demotivating to try and get back on top of some form of routine.
So, this week I am going to aim for better sleep routine, less coffee and also increasing the number of days that I dedicate to my self care. I’m going to take it one step at a time and be kind to myself, knowing that when there is change there will be disruption but that doesn’t mean you can’t regain momentum. I suppose it’s like falling off your surfboard because you’ve crashed into a large wave. If you feel that you are drowning and you can’t get back up, it will be a very unpleasant experience. But if you trust yourself, stay calm and recalibrate your thoughts and understand your situation, you can get back onto that surf board and make sure that you can ride the next wave that is headed your way. You can find your joy and your balance again and be prepared for the next fall, because that’s the whole point of it. You take the waves that you can ride and when you fall into the water you know you can get back up. Such is life!
May you all know you can get back on your surfboard no matter what you have going on in your lives and may you remember all the wins you make, not just the losses you feel.
Love Always,
M
Souloom™ 