What chance do you have to grow and let go if you don’t believe in your core that you can? What hope is there, if you are constantly putting yourself down and or contradicting your desires with your limitations?
It all starts and ends with us, what we believe is what we will ultimately experience. That is why they say the power of the mind is so strong. There are many things that I can cling onto and be angry about, there are many things that make me sad and there are many things that bring up loneliness, bitterness and shame. I share this knowing that I’m not alone, we all go through so many experiences and emotions that we feel the need to hide and in doing so we create ‘secrets’ and burdens that weigh us down. But what if we were open and able to air these out? What if we didn’t judge ourselves or others and simply spoke about things the way they were and not the way we had to project them?
A simple question like how are you is a good place to start. Well I’m all sorts, I’m good and bad, I’m neither great nor sad. Is that acceptable? YES! I don’t have to give a binary response in order to make others feel comfortable or to accept myself as I am. It is physically possible to go through highs and lows in the same breath. I’m sure some of that is because of repressed emotions and also because I’ve learned to sweep my feelings under the carpet. I’ve outsourced my emotions to the subconscious mind, to grab them and bury them deep. It will take a lot of practice and effort to regain the control and ability to notice the feelings and also to manage them in a healthy way. It will also require a lot of curiosity and trials to release the emotions that have been buried in different parts of my body.
I am putting a lot of pressure on myself to feel and be OK. But being ok doesn’t have to mean being perfect. I think that’s what we all want to hear but perfection is only reserved for mother earth and it’s creations. It’s not an adjective that is relevant to being human, it’s a distraction and a desire that will never be fulfilled.
So, this morning I’m choosing to focus on the music, the opportunity to be blogging, the sun shining through the window and the indoor plants that I have around me. I’m going to practice being here with my body so that I can better understand the good that is waiting for me to explore and the bad that is hoping to be released. Presence and breath are the keys that will unlock your heavy heart, they’re where you need to be and it’s ok if you have things come up and come out. This morning I’m observing it all, the tight jaw and the slouching body and the sad expression on my face that is becoming far too familiar.
Remember to smile. Breath deeply. Sit up straight so you can open your heart. Take it all in and be here with yourself.
Love Always,
M
Souloom™ 