If you’re expecting to grow without regression and mistakes, you could find yourself being disappointed. Growth is layered, it requires a lot of patience and deliberate action. I also realise that growth is not something that everyone is interested in, it’s not a value that is critical for many and that’s ok. Growth is a core value of mine, one which I need to experience in order to feel fulfilled and alive. That being said, it’s also a value that I am learning more and more about as I get older. It’s not as straightforward as I thought it would be nor is it as one dimensional.
A quote that is close to my heart which I try to remind myself of often is “Do the best that you can, until you know better. Then when you know better, do better” – Maya Angelou. Reminding me that on your Soul Journey you can only do the best that you can and that when you know better through the wisdom you attain, then you can do better. At it’s essence it’s referring to self-love and compassion, something that I struggle with.
This idea that we have all the answers or that some of us have our sh*t together is just that, an idea. It’s an exhausting perception that we all try to put up with in order to ‘fit in’. But the reality is that no one has it all together. Even those who have visible, material success have short comings and voids that they’re trying to fill. Knowing this is liberating in that we can cut ourselves some slack. We can be kinder and go through life with more joy.
I feel like I’m stumbling my way through growth, at times it feels like I’m not making much progress, particularly with the spiritual growth that is important to me. I keep hoping that I will be able to overcome the compass that is driven by fear and replace it with one that is based on faith, but this is a very difficult thing to do when you have learned to respond to the world through the lens of anxiety. It’s ok to stumble, it’s ok to fall, it’s ok to even crawl. The main thing is that when it comes to growth, if it’s a value that is important to you, that you pace yourself and arm yourself with as much love and compassion as you can.
Love Always,
M
Souloom™ 