There is nothing more precious than time. Perhaps my sensitivity to its worth is what makes me feel like there is never enough of it. Despite knowing this I hate to admit that I spend far too much time and energy on thoughts, paths and people who don’t enrich my life and don’t fill my cup. I’m chasing dreams, aspirations and desires that I am not even sure I want. It all stems from the confusion between being taught what one should want vs what one desires deep within and feels like they can’t possibly pursue that.
It feels like a constant pull and push dynamic where you feel like you’re living for others and you’re too afraid to live for yourself. I don’t know what’s stopping me from turning my back on it all and just pursuing the goals that bring me love and light. It could be timing and I suppose I have to trust that I can and will at the right time know that I can step away. I just don’t want to say ‘someday’ and up losing my todays.
I am struggling to know how I want to spend time, do I want to keep growing down the path that I am on or do I want to plant myself into the foundations of a new path that I haven’t yet figured out? I suppose I don’t want to take the risk of losing what I have now for something that I haven’t fully figured out yet.
Can I have it all? Probably not? Or probably so? Who knows! All I know is I am starting appreciate that time is the most important commodity any of us has and so it’s important and vital that we spend it on things that matter to us the most and make decisions that are aligned to our values and the types of lives we want to live.
Be present with yourself, with your life and your moments. Be here so that you can soak it all in and truly get to experience your life. Slow things down and remember that time will not refund you the hours, but you can stretch out the time you have by simply being in the moment.
Love Always,
M
Souloom™ 