I have recently started pilates and I am so surprised about how much focus and control is required for the sessions. Although I’ve only done two sessions, I have already reaped the benefits that come with it, both physically and emotionally. The control you have to apply in the training has really helped with my anxiety. It serves as a great reminder that we are in more control than we think we are. It also helps you shut down the rumination and focus on the task at hand.
What makes the sessions particularly impactful and healing for me is the trainer that I’ve crossed paths with. She radiates safety, love and understanding, she has a way of encouraging you to show up as you are and feeling enough as a result. She instills confidence in me no matter how much I’m capable of doing and or achieving. Her encouragement in the sessions has not only given me a sense of empowerment and confidence, but also the ability to reconnect with my body through curiosity and kindness.
I appreciate how she is able to push me out of my comfort zone without making me feel inadequate. It has really highlighted to me what a difference it can make having someone in your corner reminding you how capable you are. Giving you the space to be you and celebrating who you are as you are. This in turn is motivating me to open up and want to do more as opposed to close down and retreat.
She’s also inspired me to get more curious about movement and how I can reconnect with my body. I don’t go through life with an awareness of my body and all that it can do. I don’t have a life style that incorporates a lot of movement and I’ve also been through physical trauma’s that makes it easier to disconnect from my body rather than remain within it. I also have a lot of suppressed emotions that I’ve not released and so if I were to feel them in my body it would be too overwhelming. But I am so keen to get it out of my system because these emotions should have been released when they were being experienced.
Better late than never, I just need to find the best way to reconnect and to allow myself to feel them all; irrespective of how painful this will be. Baby steps, yoga helps, walking helps, exercise helps and now pilates is going to help me learn more about my body and how I can befriend her again. I have no doubt that in doing so, I will be able to also alleviate the symptoms of my depression and anxiety as well. I recognise that not being in my body, I am not able to experience life fully and so it’s important to rebalance the scales between my mind and body.
I’m curious as to what reveals itself to me on this new path of movement.
Love Always,
M
Souloom™ 