I’ve always struggled to trust myself, but the other day I realised that this reluctance to trust myself was my wisdom trying to guide me to my Soul and away from my ego. What dawned on me is that the reason why I haven’t been able to trust myself is because I was focusing on the part of me that is not the true me. I was identifying with my thoughts instead of the observer that is noticing them. It is this observer, the Soul that has intuition and consciousness that can give us guidance and direct us to our truth. But tapping into that part of ourselves is really difficult to do if you’re not practicing.
When I realised that my trust issues were related to trusting my thoughts and not my Being, I had a sense of joy and relief because it all made sense to me. My wisdom was cautioning me from trusting the ego, because I can whole heartedly and confidently trust my Soul.
My anxiety has kept me a live and safe from many dangers, but it’s also gotten far too comfortable for my liking. My depression has helped me get through the painful moments of my life, but it has weighed me down. These are coping mechanisms that haven’t been understood and their manifestations of decades worth of emotions that haven’t been honoured and needs that haven’t been met.
I am now aware that trusting my anxious thoughts is dangerous because their only agenda is to keep me safe. Whilst they are a factor to keep in mind and consideration, they’re not the sole basis for making decisions. So, it’s important that I develop the skill and mental muscle needed to step outside of these thoughts and let them go when they don’t serve me.
The challenge lies is being able to differentiate between the voice of fear vs intuition. This is where stillness will help me to create space between my thoughts and who I really am. This is the spiritual path I suppose, the Soul Journey of evolving beyond your ego and stepping into your light. I trust that behind all the thoughts is a Soul that is full of courage and who can guide me through the challenges that come my way.
This is something we all have access to, this is not unique to me but it’s something that most of us are not even aware of. Pay attention to your own thoughts and see if you can differentiate between the observer and the thought. It’s the most fleeting experience but the more you practice the more you can stay in that space.
Observe your thoughts.
Free yourself from their power.
Love Always,
M
Souloom™ 