Where does it all lead?

Have you noticed we are always on the move?

We have designed a social fabric that requires pace, speed and moving forward in one shape or another. I recently came across a view where I could see both mother nature and the city skylines and highways that man had made next to each other. What I realised was that the contrast between the two was so extreme. It dawned on me how we are constantly moving and going somewhere, whilst the trees are just still, growing strong in their roots and moving upwards. They take their time and they don’t run away from the elements. Rain, hail or shine they stand firm in the ground. There is wisdom in that, power, calmness and joy.

I have always loved the chase, the moving the changing. I have always been a big city girl so bring on the colours, noise and pace. But what I realised is that I think I want to stop, but I am scared to do so.

What will happen the moment I do stop? Will regret follow? Will all my hard work go to waste? Will I fall behind? Can I restart if I don’t like it? These are the questions that are running through my mind as I wonder what the next chapter of my life will entail.

All I know is that when you are constantly switched on and on the move you will be somewhere other than here. But here is all we have! I often wonder how many of us are here, now, in this moment. I struggle with this so much! I am tired of the impacts it has on my mental fitness and well-being.

It must be nice to be in the moment, no fear of what is about to come and no sorrow for what has been. Realising these things is not enough, if I want to experience something different I need to pause and shift my actions too. But I don’t sense that I am ready right now, that could be because I am still gathering the wisdom needed or perhaps because there is unfinished business I need to wrap up before I shift. Either way I just need to pay attention and observe my thoughts and my energy.

I will practice coming back to ‘now’ as much as I can, even if it is a for a fleeting moment. I will seek how to say there. I will find a way back to BEING.

Love Always,

M