My whole adult life I have been too concerned with what other people think of me. Mainly those that I care about and love deeply. But when you put your sense of self in the hands of others, you are giving them the power to determine what you’re worth. That is a dangerous game to play, because it’s almost guaranteed that you will lose.
We are made in the image of god, not in the image of those we love. People bring with them their own baggage, ego and stories. We are and will always be different characters to different people. Just as they are to us. Not all of us have the luxury or the gift of being held in a non-judgemental way by those we love. It’s not their fault, they’re not any wiser to it. This is just the dance of human dynamics.
Letting others define how you feel about yourself will inevitably be what leads to your suffering. You are the leader of your own experiences, but you have to first release yourself from the narratives that disempower you.
I am done putting my self worth in the hands of others. I want to come back home to me. I am no longer going to depend on any other human to remind me of my worth. That is for god and I to work on together. I will open my heart to those who have open hearts. I will keep my boundaries clear and I will work on bringing myself back to me.
Self Reclaimed:
People’s short coming does not have to lead to your scars.
Don’t wound your heart with the lashes of the pain they cause.
They act out thinking they’re loving you but it’s all in vain.
Hold your head high and ground your body, you’re ok.
This soul was made to burn bright, don’t let them tell you who you are.
Keep walking towards the light of god and his grace.
Forgive them, forgive yourself and find new ways.
Those who deserve you will follow and those who don’t, you can give away.
The sun comes up every day, with a new promise and a new hope.
Don’t judge yourself because they did, instead love yourself through the cloudy storms.
Like all humans you are flawed and that’s ok.
When they disappoint you, don’t take on their shame.
Heal your heart and lick your wounds, don’t play the game of blame.
I will no longer carry the burden of your judgements and perceptions of me.
I have god on my side as my witness and he will always treasure me.
Love Always,
M
Souloom™ 