It has been a while since I have written anything on here. The past few months have been hard. Funny how you can find yourself back at square one in completely new dynamics. Burnout completely took control of my body and mind. I am still familiarising myself with the demands of burnout and possibly boreout. 5 months into this and I am accepting that I can’t control recovery. So, embrace it I shall!
Reminding myself of Rumi’s poem the guest house has been helpful. I am working hard on releasing my expectation about feeling better, I know that day will come. Rather, my focus is on remaining curious here and now, in the midst of the discomfort and finding the little glitters of joy. A cup of coffee, a cosy blanket, napping in front of the telly, doing a morning skin routine etc. This is it for now and this is part of my life so I am not going to let it pass me by as though it’s less valuable. I am going to greet it the best I can and sit with it, as it requires. I don’t know what’s next. I don’t know what will be, but I know I trust the process and that this too shall pass. This discomfort and exhaustion are guests that are passing through me now so we may as well enjoy a cup of tea together.
Love Always,
M
Souloom™ 