Life’s a multi-layered cake..
Life is like a multi-layered cake. At first glance you think that every bite will be the same but you soon realise the richness that comes from each layer. Some layers are more flavoursome than others, some more dry, and on their own they’re nothing special but when you get a combination into a single…
Gentle return..
It’s been a while since I have posted. I needed to take a step back and recalibrate myself after the burn out last year. I am not fully me yet, but I am better. Sometimes we have to step back and pause. Fall down and stay down. Let go and release. Sometimes the only way…
We are all part of the collective us..
We all have a story, we are main characters in the midst of all the chaos and beauty that is happening around us. It can feel as though we’re alone on our path, that the hardships are unique to us. It’s not our ego’s neccessarily that narrow our thinking but the lack of vulnerability and…
Hold Yourself..
All of us want to be loved, but some of us have a difficult time finding safe and secure relationships that provide us with the love and light we deserve. In a world full of pain, uncertainty, injustice and hardship it’s important that we surround ourselves with people who have the capacity to love us…
It’s been a while..
It has been a while since I have written anything on here. The past few months have been hard. Funny how you can find yourself back at square one in completely new dynamics. Burnout completely took control of my body and mind. I am still familiarising myself with the demands of burnout and possibly boreout.…
I don’t need your views..
How often do you talk sweetly to yourself? I don’t think I ever talk in a loving way to myself, I used to. When I was little I used to express love and gratitude towards myself and my body. But the older I got the harsher I became. I hung around people who put me…
Chained Up …
Choose what feels most lightest. We are told what to do our whole lives, so I wonder if we choose what feels sweet, warm and light, will we always feel fulfilled? I can’t choose what feels light, I am too tied up with these chains that are piercing into my being. I have fought against…
And So..
Sometimes we need to pause and recognise how far we have come. This is our one precious life, and accepting the good, the bad and the ugly is how we come to live a life of richness and beauty. Don’t wait for life to throw curveballs at you. Be here now so that you can…
Self Reclaimed…
My whole adult life I have been too concerned with what other people think of me. Mainly those that I care about and love deeply. But when you put your sense of self in the hands of others, you are giving them the power to determine what you’re worth. That is a dangerous game to…
Love your ugly parts too..
I do not love myself. I have tried to “think” my way out of this belief, because intellectually I don’t endorse it. But we’re complex beings and sometimes “thinking” is the problem! I believe it’s important to hold a non-judgemental space for others; a space where they can be themselves and feel held and seen.…
Let burn out teach you…
The past few weeks have been humbling. I have been forced to retreat from doing. Giving me the space to appreciate that my frustrations are largely shaped by the expectations I have set for myself. The desire to do, the desire to become, the need to grow, heal and let go. All of these are…
No more energy…
Does anyone know what they want? Behind all the materialism, what is it that we are striving for? The hollowness that comes from abandoning yourself keeps growing until it turns into a blackhole that will swallow you. It’s important to pause and notice who you are underneath all the noise. To notice what is meaningful…
Too Tired To Grow..
I don’t know how to love, I understand the theory, but I don’t have the skills to practice it. Partially because I have a lot of unresolved trauma that is hindering my ability to be vulnerable, and partially because I have never seen it role modelled accurately. I recognise now that being married is a…
Seeing Beyond The Surface
Earlier this year I set myself the intention word of purposeful. I was hoping this intention word would help me make more deliberate decisions around how I spent my time, energy and focus this year. What I wasn’t expecting is to be hit with burnout and loneliness; feelings of exhaustion that created apathy in me.…
The Unfair World…
The world is unfair, this is not news to me and yet every time injustice makes it self known to me, I can’t help but feel outraged. Angered, by how the world is the way it is. How injustice seems to be making its way through the fabric of our society. Where did it come…
Reconnect…
How connected are you? In a digital age that question becomes multilayered. I have noticed that over the past 2 years, I’ve become dependent on scrolling on my phone whenever I have a moment of sadness, boredom or loneliness. It first started innocently thinking that I am just spending a few minutes learning about things…
Allow Love To Come In…
I’ve learned that I need to be guarded. I used to love deeply and it was great. But overtime I’ve become closed off, I’ve stopped trusting people and I doubt the connections that I make. I’ve unplugged myself from the network of love because I learned that when you’re plugged in you can blow a…
On how to love…
You can’t protect your loved ones from what they need to experience. You can’t control them. You can’t lecture them or tell them what to do. You can’t stop them or cage them. You can’t clip their wings because you’re afraid. You can’t rob them of their freedom. You can’t dictate how they should be…
This is me, I think?
I’m lost. I am drifting between versions of me that were and a version of me that I have been healing towards. A few weeks ago I had a realisation that surprised me, I realised that I don’t like the person that I have become. I don’t mean that in a critical way, rather more…
From some thing to no thing..
On my walk today I was surrounded by the silence of nature. There is a level of silence amongst the birds chirping or the wind blowing that is sacred. A stillness and peace that we can seldom replicate in an artificial setting. It made me realise that our lives as humans is full of constant…
See the good in you…
What is wrong with me? A question that may cross our minds more often than not. But where does this stem from? This idea that there is something wrong to begin with? A belief that we must be broken, damaged, wrong, incomplete or not good enough? These thoughts stem from an environment that has taught…
Freedom from Mind…
Surrender the beliefs that flood your mind and take over your heart. Surrender the fear, the pain, the punishment. Let go of all that does not serve you and allow yourself to BE without all the things that sink you down to the depths of darkness. This is the constant journey of self-evolution; a journey…
A perspective on life…
Life is a miracle. There are so many blessings that we take for granted; so many beliefs that we absorb without questioning and too many thoughts we hold onto because we’re afraid to let go. Life is beautiful. There are so many opportunities to shed our skin made of scars, dance around in the kitchen…
Devotion…
What are the things that I’m currently devoted to? These are some of the things that are occupying my mind and time. It’s fascinating to observe that most of my experiences are being shaped, coloured or impacted by some form of narrative linked to the above list. None of which I actively choose or want…
Committed to…
What am I committed to? I don’t really know the answer to that because sometimes I find myself floating in life; directionless, without clarity and or the fire that I had in my belly. I can’t tell if it’s ageing, hormones and or the impacts of years of mental health struggles that have caused burn…
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