As I suspected last week was a turbulent week. There were a lot of emotions and unhelpful thoughts that only caused more disruption to my ability to maintain peace and calm. During my time of the month, my body’s natural rhythm highlight and unveil the anxiety and depression that are hiding away in various places. At first I thought that this is the pattern of the female body, but after seeing highly respected specialists I was informed that this is just my body showing me what is always there, except in a more louder and confronting way.
This is important, because it shows that despite my efforts of trying to manage and respond to the symptoms, there are still deeply routed blockages that need my attention and require healing. There is a lot of internal conflict, dissonance and neglect that I’m yet to even identify behind all the noise that is in my head. I am determined to keep exploring and I am not going to be defined by what has been and which has resulted in the current state of being for me. This is all part of my Soul Journey and as exhausting as it is at times, it’s the path that was needed for my growth and evolution and so I need to trust that it has many beautiful teachings to gift me.
Which brings me to a Sunday morning whereby there are a million thoughts about what I ‘should’ do next and what needs to get done, and what choices need to be made, and what does my life look like in the future etc. All thoughts that require a crystal ball of which I don’t have.
So I take a deep breath and recognise that planning out my future isn’t going to bring me joy and bliss, it’s only going to cause angst and distress because I have no control over it. What will bring me joy is being here, in the moment and making the most of the precious Sunday that is. Being grateful that there is an opportunity to experience yet another day and to explore life on this earth.
So, I will take deep breaths to remind myself that presence is the only place that one can stay calm. I will pray so that I can cast all my energy and focus on the intentions that will expand me instead of constrain me.
I will be here as much I possibly can be and when my mind wants to move into the future and flood me with thoughts and feelings of overwhelm, I will take more breaths and remind it that what will be will be.
This week, I pray for breath, the constant reminder to be here in the now.
I pray for calmness and bliss, that is always around me but simply requires my attention.
I pray for kindness and compassion, towards all including myself.
I pray that this week I can live in joy and be able to appreciate the small yet beautiful events and interactions of each day.
I pray to be grounded in the here and now and not lifted into the future that is yet to be.
I seek silence, a place in which all is clear and easy.
Love Always,
M
Souloom™ 